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A Story of Focus and Love – Episode #804

April 30, 2022

A Story of Focus and Love
Episode #804
5/1/2022

With Martha Kilpatrick and hosted by John Enslow
With special guest: Joan Wentzel, Dave Wentzel, Gene Spears, Jacquelyn Nawrocki, LaDonna Spears

This is a continuation of a series of podcasts started in Episode #802
Belief is a story about focus. If you are focused, you are believing in what you are focused on.

John:
It’s what attracted all of us. This is what attracted us to you and to the ministry. At that point it wasn’t a ministry. It was you. You had focus on Him. We saw the light coming through you because of your focus on Him. You weren’t focused on us. You were focused on Him and we were drawn to that focus.

Joan:
We each have a story.

John:
Yeah, exactly. We each do.

Joan:
We each have a story of that. I’m not the only one with a story of that.

John:
It’s all of us.

Martha:
Then you became the torch.

John:
…Well, that’s a harder one to sell.

Dave:
Actually it’s not. You became the torch which in my darkness at that point made it very clear that you were real and that He was coming for me and I fearfully, I wanted but feared knowing that God was saying “It’s time. The time is here” because of what I saw in Joan and Martha’s ministry in her life. I would say you became a tower of light. The first time when you called me it was with fear and trembling but probably more, I think, watching The Chosen and probably very similar to the demoniacs and demons that when they came and proximity of either the disciples or Christ it was holy and they didn’t like it and didn’t want it; the person that was captive wanted it but the demon didn’t. When you met me at the door and hugged me and I knew it was God. That’s my story.

Gene:
I don’t do this…

John:
Yes you do.

Gene:
There are several things. Just watching Ladonna when she was beginning to be a part of the Bible Study. I could tell there was something different there. Watching Joan all these years, I could sense that maybe I needed to get a bite of that, too. When I came up here to work back when I was working for myself, broke: never been poor but I’ve been broke. I know what it feels like; it’s not good. I came up here to work and worked. Martha set me down here one day and said, “How much do you want to get paid an hour?” I told her. And she said, “No, that won’t do. I’ll pay you what I pay my son.” You go there and then the next day she calls me in and said, “I’ve been having a feeling that there’s something I want to do for you and I’m not going to take no for an answer.” I said, “What is that?” She wrote me a check for my house payment. People don’t do that-just “Hey, I want to help this dude out.” That was God and I knew that then. That’s been a long time ago. I realized then that there was more to her what meets the eyes.

Jacquelyn:
That light in you, His Light in you is love and acceptance and it draws us in and embraces us.

Ladonna:
When I first met Martha Joan invited me to join the Bible Study with her and it was just obvious Martha wasn’t your regular preacher person; at least the ones that I had been exposed to. It was clear to me that she heard something that I didn’t hear and saw something I didn’t see and knew stuff I didn’t know and experienced God. It wasn’t just words it was a life of experiencing God. She was essentially, besides my husband and siblings maybe, the first person that ever called me out on my BS. That’s a big deal.

Martha:
I don’t remember that you needed that.

Ladonna:
Yes, Martha was different. The experience was, “You can’t come here and lie to God. You can be a sinner, you can be a mess, you can be whatever…except at least just tell the truth about that.”

Joan:
I have a Martha story that I can tell. When I first started to meet with Martha, I wanted the Lord so desperately but I was terrified, I was just terrified when I would meet with her. Really, when I tell you, I was cynical. I didn’t read the word anymore. I went to church; I tolerated church but the rest I couldn’t take it. So, Martha said to me and this is who she is; this is God’s kindness to you and His understanding of where we’ve been, she said to me, “Joan, do you read the Word?” I said, “Oh, no, I hate the Word. I have been beat up with that thing and I don’t want anything to do with that!” She simply said to me, so graciously and kindly, “Let’s just try again.” It was the most precious thing and because of the way she said it to me, she didn’t say, “Oh my gosh, what kind of wretched woman are you” she just said, “Let’s try again” I shockingly said, “Ok.” And that’s one of my Martha moments that is really very, very precious to me and it’s who our God is. He takes us right where we are and loves us.

Martha:
And that was Him and not me because when you make a contract with Him or whatever you call it that you will give your life to Him and to know Him…I’m in that scripture where they came to Jesus and said, “How do we work the works of God?” and He said, “This is the work of God!” This is the important thing that I left out. In the AMPC He said, “This is the work of God to believe, lean on, trust, rely on, and obey.” John 6:29 AMPC They then said, What are we to do, that we may [habitually] be working the works of God? [What are we to do to carry out what God requires?] Jesus replied, This is the work (service) that God asks of you: that you believe in the One Whom He has sent [that you cleave to, trust, rely on, and have faith in His Messenger].” And then they asked for a sign. And that is it.

John:
Here’s another thing. Belief is focus. Belief is all about focus. If you are focused, you are believing in what you are focused on.

Martha:
Wow John, that’s brilliant.

John:
That’s the work is to focus and believe because believing and focus are together. I’m not going to believe something I’m not focused on.

Martha:
Right. And if you focus on it, you do believe it. It’s really simple.

A Story of Focus and Love – Episode #804 – Shulamite Podcast

We each have a story. This is what attracted us to you Martha and to the ministry. You were focused on Him and we were drawn to that focus.

One comment

  1. Sue says:

    Oh I have cried with each of your sharing a tiny bit of your encounter with Jesus in Martha and John. Bless them all ABBA and this weekly podcast with You and the Shulamite meetings. Such truth and light and blessing, makes me hunger for more.

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